A cheap grow. Gorilla cookies, Fastbuds

Do you know this feeling, when you get surrounded with a flame of excitement or inspiration so you may do some stupid things, because your mind is thinking just in half? I know it very well. In a rush I bought the cheapest china-made heating carpet (which is designed to heat plants btw) and payed for it with blood and flesh of my baby plants and of a polished ikea drawer. So I got fire in my flat, yeah. No worries! We already have plenty of snow here, so fire cannot be a real problem until spring at least. Meanwhile I fed my plants with a bit of fertilizers, which was a mistake. Now I know it. I flushed everyone and now give them only water for a little once in 3 days. The Gorilla Cookie has stunned growth, hope she will recover. Other ones... are hopeless, so am I... I'm sorry you're reading this. It may be the most depressing grow diary you ever read. But now I see this diary is the reflection of my life, of my relationships with people and I think I have some problems to deal with. Thank you for beeing with me, my friends