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The final week, I trimmed a lot to give the bottom growth a final chance to brown up.
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Day 35 – The Buddha Haze I is stacking on some killer looking flowers and the pistols, frost, and trichomes are starting to develop nicely. She continues to stretch as she has gained 6" in vertical height since last week. Continuing to feed the Nectar for the Gods nutrients and have added Triton’s Trawl (liquid fishbone meal that is rich in calcium from fish cartilage and is designed to deliver flavor, aroma and color to the finished product) and Aphrodite’s Extraction (a rich blend of sucrose, fructose, chelated nutrients, and organic acids necessary for enzymatic activity, and a complete balance of vitamins A, C, D, E, B1, B6 and B12, which are essential to a plants’ biological growth processes). These two additions are known to increases oil, resin, frost, and terpene production in flower. Continuing to add Recharge as a soil amendment to establish colonies of beneficial fungal and bacterial microbes. Temperatures are consistently between 74° - 78° and humidity between 30% - 45%. Soil pH is 6.5 and PPMs at 321 which is perfect for the Nectar for the Gods nutrient line. Added a homemade Co2 generator to boost carbon dioxide levels and to improve overall plant growth and health. – Zannabis7 Day 36 - Fed the Nectar of the Gods nutrients as indicated above and in photo. Added Recharge to the nutrient mix for microbes and to aid in the breakdown and uptake of nutrients. - Zannabis7 Day 39 - Fed the Nectar of the Gods nutrients as indicated above and in photo. Again added Recharge to the nutrient mix for microbes and to aid in the breakdown and uptake of nutrients. Also did some very light defoliation and more leaf tucking to expose flower sites - Zannabis7
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Week 6 Flower Report: Maturation in Full Swing! 🌟 Welcome to the week where the magic of maturation takes center stage! 🌟 The garden has reached a pivotal moment as the trichomes are bursting with potential. Each one a glittering universe, they are the undeniable stars of this show, taking over every surface with their frosty brilliance. ✨ Watching them evolve is like witnessing art being created in real time – it’s a reminder of the beauty and patience this craft demands. Trichomes: The Frosty Frontier This week, the focus is all about those frosty beauties! • Trichomes are the key indicators of ripeness and cannabinoid production. Watching their progression from clear to cloudy to amber provides the ultimate insight into maturity. • Currently, we’re seeing a fantastic mix of cloudy trichomes with some clear still hanging around – a perfect sign that they’re gearing up for their final push. • Fun fact: Trichomes serve as the plant’s natural defense mechanism, protecting it from UV rays and pests while being our treasure trove for cannabinoids and terpenes. Spectrum Tuning: The Science of Light Light plays a major role in shaping the maturation process, and this week, we’ve dialed in the spectrum for optimal results. Here’s the breakdown: • Whites: Running at 77% to maintain robust overall growth and trichome density. • Deep Reds, Far Reds, and UV: Maxed out at 100% to mimic the end-of-season spectrum, signaling the plants to finish strong. • Deep Reds: Enhance photosynthesis efficiency through the Emerson effect. • Far Reds: Promote stretch and flowering hormone production. • UV: Stimulates trichome production for an extra boost of frost! We’ve also added a timing twist: • Reds & UV start 15 minutes before whites to simulate sunrise. • Reds & UV finish 15 minutes after whites to mimic sunset, creating a more natural light transition. These subtle timing tricks help reduce stress while optimizing light absorption, ensuring every photon counts! 🌞 Environmental Conditions: Precision is Key Here are the dialed-in parameters for the week: • Temps: 26.3°C • RH: 70.1% • CO2: 800 ppm • VPD: 1.03 kPa With these numbers, the ladies are thriving in their sweet spot, absorbing nutrients efficiently while maximizing trichome development. Lighting Power: • Lower layer at 800 PPFD and the upper layer shining bright at 1500 PPFD. The canopy coverage is perfect for even development throughout the garden. Nutrition: Balanced and Boosted We’ve stuck with the tried-and-true nutrient mix this week but with some strategic adjustments: • Removed Breaking Powder to focus on trichome maturity. • Introduced K-Boost at 0.5 ml/L, giving the plants the potassium edge they need to pack on weight and enhance terpene production. • Feeding solution details: • pH: 6.2 • TDS: 755 ppm • Temp: 20.6°C In the Autopots, the medium stays perfectly hydrated at 100% with: • TDS: 580 ppm • Temp: 22.2°C Shoutouts and Gratitude A huge shoutout to the amazing genetics and these incredible ladies, and a big thanks to Trol Master, Aptus Holland and Pro Mix for the stellar products that are elevating this grow to new heights! 🌱💪 To all growers out there, remember: Patience is the secret ingredient. Watch, learn, and trust the process – the results will always amaze you. Here’s to another week of growth and gratitude. Onwards to Week 7 with hearts full of joy and gardens full of frost! 🌟💚 Growers Love, Your Grateful Gardener Discount Codes so you can save big on your next check out 💚💚💚 Kannabia - DOGDOCTOR 30% off SeedsmanSeeds - DOGDOCTOR 10% off CannaKan- DOGDOCTOR 15% off terpyz.eu - DOCTOR 15% off The Neutralizer - PORKIT5-DOG 15% off Fast Buds - DOGDOCT 15% off As always thank you all for stopping by, for the love and for it all , this journey of mine wold just not be the same without you guys, the love and support is very much appreciated and i fell honored and so joyful with you all in my life 🙏
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Both of these girls are really starting to stack it on. They were late to the party- but they are surely making up for it now. I’m going to have to be extra careful this week With humidity.
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This girl is doing fanominal I can't believe how big she is lol I think the stretching gas finally stopped and she is more concentrated on making some buds lower leaves dying off as natural part of flowering comes on the node spacing is crazy tight we're gonna have some massive chunky nugs can't wait ! But patience is key stay tuned !!
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Day 1 - repotting and watering with nutrients for 1st time
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Hallo zusammen 🤙. Sie wächst sehr schön und macht keine Probleme.
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Looks all good. The Fruit Spirit is growing big time. Unfortunately the Legendary OG is very slow, I believe it’s because i plant it in a very big pot and is getting focused on the roots for now. It does look healthy anyways. The Blue cheese automatic is growing really quick. Unfortunately in week 3 the Legendary OG has died. I found out that i was giving nutrients to early so I kinda burnt it. Feeling sad about it. I’m doing another seed now. Northern Light Automatic. This week I added chamomile flowers to the soil. I baked in the oven egg shells which I added to the soil as a natural Calcium.
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Here we are at the halfway point, after the first month our photoperiodic plants are multiplying their florets and then going into flowering. Slurricane is a lady with low internodal distance. This characteristic greatly influences the application of growing techniques. In this case it is a plant that responds to topping a little slower than the others and it is best to wait for the branches to grow to avoid damaging the little ones. However, we are at 4 florets and between tomorrow and the day after tomorrow we will cut 8. My plan for photoperiodic plants is to get to 16, wait a few days and go into flowering. 16 florets as I see it is the perfect size for the 11 liter pot. Topping is an extremely delicate moment as regards cutting the tops to split them, we always pay attention not to damage the new growing branches. Topping is also a delicate moment as regards fertilization because the plant slows down and absolutely does not need all that nitrogen that it would normally need and that the producers recommend in their sheets. So you should arrive with the plant green and perfectly in shape at this moment and dose the fertilizer very well for growth. Mine came from a slightly deficient veg because I kept it low fearing this over effect during the topping that I know well and now I am a bit over. Nothing to worry about, of course, but if you do repeated topping, my advice is to use preferred soil or prepare the soil with Monster Bud Mix by Zamnesia or Plagron Super Mix, in short, enrich the soil at the start and only add nitrogen if necessary, especially during repeated topping. In any case, everything is under control and I will demonstrate it to you during the flowering phase. Wait for the Uncle BreadandBuds and see what it does to you. Remember that cold temperatures make the girls absorb food much more slowly than in summer, so be careful to give the right amount and let the plant dry in maximum 2 days or you risk imbalances. We are always using soil, feeding and all the recommended additives from Plagron 100& organic, we have only lowered the amount of grow in this topping phase for the reasons mentioned above. ---- Decide on the right soil and calculate your fertilizer sheet based on the soil on the official website. -- www.plagron.com Try a seed of this strain that drives us crazy...It's a super News! ---- https://www.zamnesia.io/it/11177-zamnesia-seeds-slurricane.html Zamnesia Description // Do you want to add a prestigious genetics to your grow room? Slurricane is a premium US strain created by In House Genetics and now available to growers thanks to the breeding processes implemented by Zamnesia. Born from the fusion of Purple Punch and Do-Si-Dos, Slurricane is 60% indica and incredibly vigorous. Whether grown indoors, outdoors or in a greenhouse, this strain can produce large quantities of dense and aromatic buds. Add Slurricane to your assortment and enjoy growing one of the most beloved hybrids in the United States. All the best that mother nature can offer is on ---- www.zamnesia.com
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Abandoned outside for 10 weeks Survived 2 heatwaves Only water Impressive
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09/08/2021 - Fly traps collected a plethora of gnats - Had to till the first few inches of the soil while top dressing, as it was incredibly hard and dry - Fertilized with Gaia Green Power Bloom + EWC + insect frass - Carefully watered with a half gallon tea of DIY kelp extract, molasses, LAB and neem extract
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Buenas a tod@s... En esta tercera semana( que yo creo q sería como la primera con estas alturas y x lo q son tan pequeñas, se pasarason a tierra más de lo previsto, espeigaron y doblaron tu tamaño y se pasaron a maceta grande) justamente hoy se le agregaron nutrientes, algunos nuevos y otros q ya había usado antes... Eh mantenido al margen las medidas NPK recomendables y eh agregado algo x ahí q seguro va bien 😉 la humedad es estable generalmente, la temperatura tanbm... De momento no hay ningún problema, están fuertes y van creciendo bien, no le podemos pedir mucho a estas alturas, eso para luego... La semana q viene mejor... Buenos huemos para tod@s... ⚕️😎 🇦🇷🤝🏻🇪🇦
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Week 4 Flower Diary: The Generative Pivot & Structural Reinforcement ​Phase: Mid-Flower / "The Bulking Engine" Light Intensity: 950 µmol/m²/s Environment: 28°C / 52% RH (1.56 kPa VPD) ​1. Environmental Governance: Chasing the VPD ​The primary focus this week has been the pursuit of the "Perfect VPD". As the Invisible Sun intensity was pushed to 950 µmols, the atmospheric pressure was increased to match the metabolic demand. ​The 1.56 kPa Target: Raising the VPD at this stage is a form of Generative Steering. By increasing the "atmospheric pull," we maximize transpiration velocity, ensuring the raw materials from the Biotabs and Bactrex are pulled efficiently into the developing flower sites. ​Heating Optimization: Introduced a Vivosun W70 heater to replace the bar radiator. This provides a more distributed thermal lift, eliminating the risk of localized root zone damage on inner-facing pots while maintaining the 21.2°C root-floor temperature needed for microbial stability. ​2. Nutrient Strategy: Structural Reinforcement ​With the PK Tea currently on a 36-hour bubble, the substrate was buffered today to support the high light load. ​Silicium Flash Top-Dress: Applied a top-dress of Silicium Flash to provide a slow-release mineral foundation. The added Silicon is critical at 950 µmols; it reinforces cell walls and helps the plant regulate its stomatal aperture under high-intensity stress. ​Top-Watering Protocol: Established a weekly 500ml top-watering routine. This serves two clinical purposes: it washes the Silicium Flash into the rhizosphere and prevents the accumulation of salts in the top inch of the media—a common issue in bottom-fed Autopot systems. ​Microbial Maintenance: Integrated a monthly Bactrex recharge into this top-watering schedule to maintain the microbial density required to process organic inputs. ​3. Photobiological Log: Spectral Steering ​The 13/11 photoperiod continues to drive high efficiency via the "Sleep Hack". ​Emerson Effect Efficiency: Running the Deep Red (680nm) and Far-Red (730nm) channels mid-day allows both photosystems (PSII and PSI) to operate in a synergistic series. This prevents the metabolic "bottleneck" that occurs when plants are pushed near their saturation point of 1000 µmols. ​UV Status: While the Solacure Flower Power arrival was delayed, the room is being coaxed into high gear at 1.56 kPa in preparation. Once the bar is deployed, we will initiate the UVR8 process, where the plant perceives 280nm radiation and responds by increasing glandular trichome density as a biological defense.its some interesting science goes on when you blast 280nm photons at a plant. Proteins do mad stuff which I look forward to going on about once the damn light arrives.. ​4. Observations & Baseline ​New flower site photos taken today establish the Pre-UV baseline. Stacking is dense due to the high Phytochrome Photostationary State (PSS) maintained by tmynlighting rig and the plants are currently praying to the light gods, indicating they have fully acclimated to the current 950 µmol load. ​Weekly Tasking: In 36hr Check PK Tea oxygenation and apply at the end of the brew cycle. ​UV Arrival: Inspect Solacure bulbs and program the 15-minute "Acclimation Pulses" for the mid-day peak. ​VPD Check: Ensure RH doesn't climb above 55% during the dark transition. Thanks for looking. Grow well.🌿💚🇬🇧
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Busy week so Only a pic for the end of the week
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7/12 Soil was a little damp so I watered lightly only what looked like it needed it. Dr. Zymes seems to have no negative effects. Plants just look super clean. I still saw some patches of PM and I only had the free samples so I'm going to have to use another product in conjunction to treat this. Overall I'm pretty impressed with the Dr. Zymes. HAD MY VIDEO AND TONS OF PICS UPLOADED BUT THIS SITE WOULDN'T ALLOW ME TO SAVE. I'LL UPLOAD THE REST LATER "IF" THIS EVEN ALLOWS ME TO SAVE. Went back over at three and watered the girls. Everything looks amazing. Trying to upload video now. 7/13 Didn't water this morning. Plants look fantastic. Went over at 4:30pm. Things looked great. Definitely stretching. I took some good pictures. Didn't water as plants seemed VERY happy and soil still had a little moisture. I gave them a touch of kindness which means I gave them a tiny bit of water to hold them over until morning. I know this is not a good practice to get into but I didn't want to come back to wilting plants. The little seedlings are turning more lime green (which isn't good) and have some yellow leaves. They have recycled soil from last grow. May need to feed more. I went through them and moths flew everywhere. We have a major brown tail moth problem here. I know I just sprayed Dr. Zymes but I'm going to have to spray BT. I must've seen at least half a dozen moths. On just those three tiny plants. Still struggling with PM. 7/14 Went to the garden briefly this morning. It rained last night and was drizzling while I was there so I obviously didn't water. Its still sprinkling and I'll be over there later to check. Plants are really stretching into "the asparagus" stage as I like to call it lol. What will eventually be a bunch of colas stretch into what I think looks like asparagus spears. That may be part of the reason why some of the leaves turn yellow and die in the lower middle canopy during this time. Everything looks great though and I certainly have plenty of leaves. I looked at last year's diary at this date and got some relief noticing the same things happening last year at the same time of year. UPDATE: Went back to the grow as the "rain" and "thunder showers" weren't producing much water. I checked the soil and it seemed to have dried out some (more on smaller bags) and hadn't FULLY watered the plants. I watered lightly. I listened and I could hear the water work it's way down the medium. Even if it pours tonight plants will be ready for a feed tomorrow. The 3 little ones in buckets outside especially. I have work to do tomorrow. 7/15 It's overcast today and looks like rain. Forecast called for a nice sunny day. Anyway I fed two gallons to nutes to the garden and did some slight defoliation. I had to hurry as I had a doctor's appointment. I have branches that need to be tied down and plants need to be cleaned up a bit. If it's not raining I may do a preventative BT spray. We have a HORRENDOUS outbreak of brown tail moths. I don't think the bother cannabis but they are poisonous and the rash that develops is hell. 90 degrees at 6:30 plants weren't totally dry but the top inch or so was so I gave them a good drink. Took some pictures and a video I'll upload when I have a better connection. Cop was watching me. Good thing I'm in a legal state and my grow is totally on point. 7/16 No water this morning. Soil was still wet. Plants are looking good. Will update more later on. Defoliation, pruning and spraying are on the agenda. Made a video and took more pictures but internet is spotty and doesn't want to upload. Went back and watered lightly before a massive thunder storm dropped sheet rain for like an hour. Internet is still slow so I'll have to wait till tomm to upload. 7/17 No water. Brown tail moth rash is driving me crazy. Plants still stretching and look overall healthy. Defoliated some this morning. Will update more later. Went back over and gave a little water before it began to downpour. 7/18 Raining with what looks like more rain in the forecast. Good. Hopefully will help me lower the pH a little. I didn't take pictures or even go in the cage this morning. This brown tail moth rash has me scared lol. It really sucks. Makes poison ivy seem pleasant. When rain stops BT will be sprayed.
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Gave the girls a really good defoliation giving them a couple of days before going into week nine first week of flower then gonna give them one week in flower before I give them a top feeding of flower nutes
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Week 5: Transplant Time & Root Power! Oh man, this was one of those weeks! We transplanted all five phenos into bigger pots, and let me tell you, they’re thriving! (Check out the complete video episode for all the details 😉). The girls are looking amazing, all pretty much the same size for now, so I don’t have any favorites yet—but let’s see what the future holds! For photos, I used both my Nikon P900 and Sony A6000, with a bunch of lenses and filters to preserve the true colors—these LEDs are powerful! Current Setup & Conditions This week, they’re still chilling with their sisters in the big tent, but in about a week, they’ll be moving into the TrolMaster ecosystem for even better environmental control. Watering: pH 6.06, EC 0.96 Temperature: A bit cold , but it is what it is. We’re facing some freezing outdoor temps (as shown last week in the frosty veggie garden pics!), yet these Runtz are holding strong like true champions. 💪❄️ Nutrition: Still on the Aptus Clean Program, with: Regulator System Clean RO Water Conditioner All-in-One Liquid Root Development: The Real MVP! Let’s go deep on roots! The mycorrhizae in the Pro-Mix soil has been working its magic, and I’m still boosting them further with a touch of Aptus Holland Mycor Mix. The root development on this transplant was insane—super white, healthy, and ready to explode with growth. What Are Mycorrhizae? The word “mycorrhiza” comes from Greek: • Myco- meaning fungus • Rhiza- meaning root Mycorrhizae are a type of beneficial fungi that form a symbiotic (mutually beneficial) relationship with plant roots. These fungi extend far beyond the root zone, creating an underground network that helps plants absorb water, nutrients, and improve overall health. This is not a single species but rather a whole category of fungi, mainly divided into: 1. Ectomycorrhizae – Live on the outside of plant roots, forming a sheath around them. Common in trees like pines and oaks. 2. Endomycorrhizae (Arbuscular Mycorrhizae, AMF) – The most beneficial for most crops and cannabis. These penetrate root cells, forming structures inside the roots that exchange nutrients. Where Are Mycorrhizae Found in Nature? Mycorrhizae naturally occur in forests, grasslands, and undisturbed soils worldwide. They play a crucial role in maintaining ecosystem balance by helping plants access nutrients from the soil. In a natural environment, plants are constantly forming relationships with these fungi. However, in modern agriculture, excessive tilling, chemical fertilizers, and fungicides have reduced their populations, making supplementation necessary in many cases. How Do Mycorrhizae Work? Once mycorrhizae colonize a plant’s roots, they start forming an underground fungal network called the mycelium. This network extends the plant’s reach into the soil, acting as a second root system. Benefits of Mycorrhizae: ✅ Enhanced Nutrient Uptake – Mycorrhizae help plants absorb phosphorus, nitrogen, and micronutrients that would otherwise be unavailable. ✅ Improved Water Absorption – The fungal network can reach deeper into the soil than roots alone, helping plants survive drought conditions. ✅ Stronger, Healthier Roots – They promote thicker, more robust root systems, reducing transplant shock. ✅ Better Soil Structure – They produce glomalin, a protein that improves soil aggregation and helps retain moisture. ✅ Natural Pest & Disease Resistance – Healthy plants with strong mycorrhizal relationships tend to be more resistant to soil-borne pathogens. How Mycorrhizae Help in Cannabis & Gardening In controlled growing environments, using mycorrhizae is a game-changer. Since cannabis relies heavily on phosphorus, the enhanced nutrient uptake provided by mycorrhizae is especially beneficial. Best ways to apply mycorrhizae: • At transplant – Dust roots with mycorrhizae powder or mix into soil. • As a soil drench – Some liquid formulations allow fungi to colonize even after planting. • Mix into your growing medium – Using pre-amended soil like Pro-Mix HP Mycorrhizae ensures roots have early access. Pro Tip: Mycorrhizae need living roots to survive! Avoid using synthetic fungicides or excessive chemical fertilizers, as they can kill the fungi. Think of mycorrhizae as a natural root booster. They’ve been around for hundreds of millions of years, helping plants thrive in all conditions. By using them in cultivation, you’re mimicking nature, ensuring your plants grow stronger, healthier, and more resilient. When used correctly, mycorrhizae can increase yields, improve plant health, and reduce the need for synthetic inputs—making them a must-have for any serious grower! Can’t wait to see how they’ll look in the next transplant! I made a few changes to my improvised photo studio, including a pink background for now—because why not? Let’s keep things fun and full of color! 🌸📸 Massive gratitude to all our sponsors and of course, a special shoutout to Zamnesia, Plagron, and Grow Diaries for making this amazing cup happen. 🙌 And to the community—followers, supporters, lovers, haters—I love you all! ❤️ Let’s keep pushing forward, learning, and making this grow legendary! Stay Tuned for More! Next week, i may be moving them into bigger pots and getting them into their final environment. You won’t want to miss this next stage! See you all next week—stay tuned, keep growing, good luck to all and let’s make history together! 🚀🌱 Genetics - Runtz https://www.zamnesia.com/6000-zamnesia-seeds-runtz-feminized.html Nutrients - Plagron https://plagron.com/en/hobby - Aptus Holland https://aptus-holland.com/ Controls - Trol MAster https://www.trolmaster.eu/ LED - https://www.futureofgrow.com/en LED - https://www.thinkgrowled.com Soil - https://www.promixgardening.com/en Germination - Cannakan https://cannakan.com/?srsltid=AfmBOopXr-inLXajXu3QFgKXCXXos4F1oEvScjMKIB5MR5dk8-GJ-F49 DOGDOCTOR 15% off Smoking Papers - https://ziggioriginal.com/ Terpene saver - https://grovebags.com/ As always thank you all for stopping by, for the love and for it all , this journey of mine wold just not be the same without you guys, the love and support is very much appreciloved and i fell honored with you all in my life With true love comes happiness Always believe in your self and always do things expecting nothing and with an open heart , be a giver and the universe will give back to you in ways you could not even imagine so As always, this is shared for educational purposes, aiming to spread understanding and appreciation for this plant. 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Hey guys whats up? We move her to a bigger pot to make sure she expand her roots and grow bigger We add water every 24hrs to keep her humid but not too much just enough Also we have been adding veggie nutes until today... We switch to bloom nutes and now we are around 1500ppm. Added like 300/400ml plus 50ml of plain water.... And thats about it.... Let's see how she grows I am sad my kitty escaped from home We have been waiting for her to come back This is the third night without her We did everything we could to find her This really sucks but the only thing we get to say is that we never saw her dead Which give us hope.... We really hope she does come back This is the first time she does something like that we dont even know if she ever will But people said to wait for at least 1week to a month the la test.... I just hope she does! Anyways.... Reason im mentioning my girl Is because her name was bunny And the day she escaped She ate Part of my strawberry cheesecake (of one of those fan leaves) And I will keep that one til end Because yeah she will always remind me... Oh well... Lord im just.... Waiting for this strawberry cheesecake so I can chill and keep hoping she comes back >.<