outdoor '19 | beginner

Bad news, friends. I'm writing this update to let you know that Foster, the Blue Dream, turned out to be a male. 😪Allow me to explain. First, I want to let you all know that I struggled with posting this update. I was considering erasing the grow diary and pretending like this all never happened. I almost did that to hide my shame. But since I'm an amateur, and since I'm learning (and basically teaching myself) I ultimately decided to post this to normalize failure and mistakes. Failure is, in my humble opinion, the most important aspect of learning. I made a big mistake in misidentifying the sex of this plant. It really sucks, and I'm really embarrassed. I will harvest zero flower from the blue dream--complete failure. But I learned a very good lesson. In fact, I learned so much about cannabis, about growing cannabis. And I want others out there to feel okay if they fail. So I'm posting this update, and I'm keeping this diary up, as a message to other amateur growers out there: its okay to fuck up. I really fucked up. We will learn. I didn't grow an award-winning plant. But that's okay! And next summer, you bet your ass I will grow some dank ass flower (ha, I'll be ordering feminized seeds this time 😂). So, my friends, thanks for following this journal, and thanks for all the support. If you've provided answers to my questions or tips for growing: i extend a sincere "thanks." I love being a part of an online community that is supportive of noobs like me. Thanks for following, even if it did ultimately end in failure! Cheers.