12/209:12 AM brainstorming labor ideas for my garden with some roommates. We have some pretty old-fashioned ideas about gardening.😂🧛♂️🧛♂️🧛♂️
12/20 12AM THE SHINING HOTEL IS OPEN FOR THE NIGHT...... FURRIES MUST BE GREAT TIPPERS, I CANT KEEP THE WAITER AWAY FROM THAT GUY!!!
BACK TO WORK, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH MY EMPLOYERS ARE DEPENDING ON ME.....DO YOU???!!!!
12/29 5pm I still feel guilty about the abortions I've paid for...I also think about the guy that directed Spinal Tap..and I think well..... No... Im not a dick like that, totally different way...but Im still going to hell for it, and so will you! So dont get one!! Didnt see that coming.......DID YOU???!!!!
12/30 1:34AM🚨👨🔬 ...That’s fantastic news—your plants looking fantastic with no burn is the ultimate validation that the mix is dialed in perfectly, especially at such conservative doses. Half a milliliter per gallon of Purpinator is on the lighter side (standard recs for flowering cannabis often go 6–15 mL/gal later in bloom, or 2–5 mL/gal in veg), so you’re giving the plants just enough nudge without risking overload or pH swings.
Quick Breakdown of Why This Combo Is Working So Well
• Purpinator’s Role (from Rhizoflora/General Hydroponics): It’s specifically engineered to boost flavonoid/anthocyanin production for deeper purple hues in genetically capable strains (mostly cannabis, but it works on other plants too). It does this by providing building blocks for those pigments, regulating vacuole pH (more neutral → better anthocyanin expression), and adding magnesium for chlorophyll support without stressing the plant. No PGRs, no heavy metals—just natural compounds that enhance color, terpenes, and resin without forcing environmental stress like cold shocks. At your low dose, it’s gently amplifying what the plant can do naturally, which explains the vibrant results without any tip burn or slowdown issues.
• Your Amino Acid Stack (EEA, proline, TMG powder, glycine, glutamine at moderate levels):
• Phenylalanine (key precursor): Directly feeds into the phenylpropanoid pathway → more anthocyanins/flavonoids for purple tones. Studies show it boosts phenolic compounds and pigmentation when applied foliarly or in soil.
• Proline + Glycine: These are classic stress-protectors/osmolytes—proline especially ramps up under drought/salinity to stabilize proteins and membranes, while glycine supports overall metabolism and can indirectly aid pigment stability. Together, they help plants handle any minor stress from the Purpinator push without wilting or yellowing.
• Glutamine: Great for nitrogen shuttling and amino acid synthesis—helps with efficient N use (your original goal) and keeps growth vigorous but balanced.
• TMG (trimethylglycine/betaine): Acts as another osmoprotectant (like proline), improving stress tolerance, cell turgor, and potentially aiding secondary metabolite production. In plants, betaine helps with drought/salt resistance and can support chlorophyll function without pushing excessive growth.
The synergy here is spot-on: Purpinator drives the pigmentation pathway, phenylalanine supplies the raw material, and the rest (proline/glycine/TMG/glutamine) provide buffering and efficiency so the plants stay healthy and happy. No antagonism or overload—hence the “no burning” and “really coming along great.”🚨👨🔬.
12/30 1:47AM.... Neck bleeding again, pain blood gore...goddamnit!!!!!
12/30 2:20AM some general info for fellow broken people club 👨🔬🏥Yes, the additional details you described—**inadequate sedation** leading to waking up mid-procedure with an instinctive fight-or-flight response (reaching/grabbing under partial consciousness), and **excessive sedation** causing respiratory arrest (stopping breathing, requiring intervention to restart)—add significant layers to the potential long-term risks from those repeated transforaminal epidural steroid injections (TESI). These aren’t just isolated “bad experiences”; they represent documented procedural complications that can contribute to lasting physical and psychological effects, especially when repeated six times in a short window (four months).
### Why These Specific Sedation Issues Matter Long-Term
Sedation errors during spine procedures like TESI are well-recognized risks, particularly with deep or variable levels. The procedure often uses moderate sedation (e.g., midazolam + fentanyl or propofol) to keep patients still and comfortable, but dosing is tricky—too little can lead to awareness/agitation, too much to respiratory depression/apnea. Your case had both extremes, which increases the odds of compounded harm.
1. **From Inadequate Sedation / Intra-Procedural Awareness or Agitation**:
- Waking up partially and reacting defensively (as you did) can cause sudden movement, which risks **needle malpositioning** or trauma to nerves, spinal cord, or nearby structures during the injection phase. This is a known concern in literature—patient movement under light sedation has been linked to unintended intramedullary (into the cord) or intravascular injections, potentially leading to:
- Direct nerve/cord injury → chronic neuropathic pain, weakness, numbness, or (rarely) permanent deficits like partial paralysis.
- Increased procedural trauma → inflammation/scarring (e.g., arachnoiditis or epidural fibrosis), contributing to ongoing back/spine pain or failed back surgery syndrome-like symptoms years later.
- Psychologically, even partial awareness of pain/terror during a procedure can lead to **procedural trauma/PTSD-like effects** (flashbacks, heightened anxiety around medical settings, hypervigilance), especially when the body interprets it as an “attack.” This isn’t uncommon in reports of under-sedated procedures and can exacerbate chronic pain perception through central sensitization.
2. **From Excessive Sedation / Respiratory Arrest**:
- Brief apnea (stopping breathing) requiring reversal (e.g., naloxone, bag-mask ventilation, or stimulation) is a serious event. While most patients recover fully if caught quickly, repeated or prolonged episodes can cause:
- **Hypoxic brain injury** → subtle cognitive changes, memory issues, or mood dysregulation (e.g., worsened anxiety/depression from even brief oxygen desaturation).
- **Pulmonary complications** → aspiration risk (if secretions entered airways), or lingering lung irritation, though rare in monitored settings.
- **Cumulative stress on the body** → adrenal suppression (from steroids) plus repeated sedation insults can contribute to fatigue, hormonal imbalances, or worsened pain sensitivity long-term.
- Respiratory depression/arrest during sedation for pain procedures is flagged in safety reviews as potentially leading to delayed morbidity if not perfectly managed.
### Broader Long-Term Risks Amplified by Your Experience
Your history of multiple sessions (6 in 4 months) already elevates the baseline risks from repeated steroid exposure and needle trauma:
- **Cumulative steroid effects**: Bone weakening (osteoporosis/fracture risk), muscle wasting, endocrine disruption (adrenal insufficiency, weight/fluid issues), or avascular necrosis (bone death in joints).
- **Nerve/spinal trauma**: Higher chance of chronic radiculopathy, arachnoiditis (scarring causing burning pain/stiffness), or epidural fibrosis (scar tissue blocking nerves).
- **Infection/hematoma scarring**: Even if no acute infection, micro-trauma from repeated insertions can lead to chronic inflammation or scar-related pain.
The sedation mishaps likely worsened these by introducing movement-related needle risks and hypoxic stress.
### What You Can Do Now
These events happened years ago (2008), so long-term effects would likely have manifested by now (e.g., persistent pain patterns, new neurological symptoms, or bone density changes). If you’re dealing with ongoing issues:
- See a **spine neurologist or pain specialist** for updated imaging (MRI/CT) and nerve studies (EMG) to check for scarring, cord changes, or other sequelae.
- Consider **bone density scan (DEXA)** if not done recently, especially with steroid history.
- If psychological echoes (fear of procedures, triggered anxiety) linger, trauma-focused therapy (e.g., EMDR for medical trauma) can help process it.
- Report to your primary doctor—they can review records and coordinate care.
What you’re describing was objectively traumatic and dangerous—it’s valid to feel it was “very, very terrible.” Many patients in similar situations have lasting impacts, and acknowledging that is a step toward managing it. If you have more details or current symptoms, I can help refine what to discuss with a doctor. Hang in there."🏥......... LIKE ROBIN WILLIAMS DID????🤣😈