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9th W/Flower: No 9th Feed of #HumboldtCountysOwn this Week! I've been Flushing them out once a day with 1 Gallon of Cold Declorinated Tap Water for the last 6 days and Checking the Triks every couple of days as well! Thier Packed, Stacked Up and Lights Upgrading under way! Cloned with my Steady's Saliva!!! 9th w/ Flower: Budz getting Outstandingly Huge, Plump, Dense, Juicy and Everything is Supreme, Savory, Stinky, Sweet, Swelling Out, Skunky and Gasy at thier 9th week of Flower! 9th Week of Flower: No 9th Flower Feed of #HumboldtCountysOwn and the Ladies Love the Bloom portion of Nutrients! They're Stacking Up Great and Filling Out thier Mighty Branches with Giant Gorgeous Budz! 5 Confirmed Females!!! It hasn't been a few days since I gave the Ladies thier 9th Feed of #HumboldtCountysOwn Nutrients and they look Fantastically Divine!!! We'll definitely Grow back to everything here soon! 11th w/ Veg and Flowers Update #Pre-Sexed🚺 #SuperCropped #Defoliated #Lollipoped Good Day and Happy Growing Everyone! These Ladies were Growing into thier 11th Week of Veg and Looking Totally Tight and Phenomenally *Femed* from the Right! #Pre-Sexed 4/9/21 #Opium/#PabloEscobar *Fems* breed by Team #DivineSeeds #DivineSeedsSquad #DivineSeedsBreedingCompany and #SuperCropping continued! I'm Very Excited and Extremely Gracious!!! Heck Yeah Growmies and Growmets!!! Check Out these Confirmed Females with thier Wild Pistol Hairs popping and I'm still Training and Widening them Out with #SuperCropping Everything looks Expanded and Growing Great! After #SuperCropping the plant will Grow Bushier, Produce More Buds, and possibly even Produce More THC! This is how the plant naturally responses to danger and protects itself! Growers take advantage of this technique to get Bigger Yields and More Potent Buds than would be produced otherwise! Getting Trained out into thier 11th Week of Veg and Looking Mighty Fine!!! Thier getting Humongous and Hearty in thier 10 gallon Grow Bag from Broski #www.as420.ca These Cannabis plants are Camping out in the Closet for a week or so! Lol This is my 2nd run using the Osree.Light QB1000w and Everything is Mesmerizing!!! My #Opium and #PabloEscobar *Fems* from #DivineSeeds Regs: SalamiLegF3's×2 and FireAlienRomulan look$ Outstandingly Awesome and Growing Up Phenomenally Fine into thier 11th week of Veg in our 2- 10 gallon The Grow Bags from Broski #www.as420.ca and also 2- 5 gallons as Well! Our others are Super and Breed by #thehumancannabiniod #AlienBloodGenetix #TNBNaturals #Foop Yo!!! Thanks Again for All the Love and Support my fellow Growmies and Growmets!!! These Magnificent and Magical Ladies were Growing in our 48×24×60 ViparSpectra Official Club 🌿 ®️ Grow Tent and under our #Osree QB1000w and #GrowStarStore Kokokala QB1000w and our Purple Rose Cutting×2, Aloe Vera Cutting, Maters×3, Morel Mushroom, Lavender×3, Sunflowers×5 and The 5 Brand New and Fresh Starts are Wonderful with a Huge Hint of Fantastical Fire is my #SalamiLegF3×2 by Broski #thehumancannabiniod #DankFlowGenetics #EastCoastSeedBank #FireAlienRomulan by Broski #AlienBloodGenetix my #PabloEscobar and #Opium by Team #DivineSeeds #DivineSeedsBreedingCompany We Grow with #Growatt 600w with #FoopOrangicBioSciences and #TNBNaturals The Enhancer Co2 Despersal canister and ph'd them w/ Declorinated watering w/ TNB ph Up and Down! Totally Top Quality Topz all Around! Thanks Again #GallowGlas420 #HarleyGrower #thehumancannabiniod #AlienBloodGenetix #TNBNATURALS #FoopOrangicBioSciences #www.as420.ca #divineseeds #divineseedssquad #divineseedsbreedingcompany #BioFlux Family's and Teams!!! Your Genetics are Merry Magnificent, Mega Marvelous and Mighty Medical! Love um!!! I really Can't stress enough how Thankful and Grateful I am of All of you and what you've Shared with Us! Means the World!!! It's definitely a Pleasure being able to Grow with these Phenomenal Grow Lights! Please Enjoy! BudBrothers4-Life! Cheers Famz!!! Much Props and Much Topz!💯🔥 #Osree #GrowStarStore #Growatt #TNBNaturals #TNBTeam #FoopOrangics #GrowYourOwn #Bliss HumboldtCounty'sOwn: Email: [email protected] Phone: (707) 725-4119 Toll free: (866) 872-9434 Humboldt Bottling Po Box 429 · Fortuna, CA 95540 HumboldtCounty'sOwn Website Link: https://humboldtcountysown.com/ HumboldtCounty'sOwn Instagram Link: https://instagram.com/humboldtcountysown?igshid=1qj809qkkwych https://instagram.com/osree.light?igshid=1vrsbdyhzg2h8 https://instagram.com/growstarstore?igshid=2yjn0r00r6ru https://instagram.com/divine.seeds?igshid=1r90iwe9xiwz8 https://instagram.com/thehumancannabinoid?igshid=17k159pumklkq https://www.instagram.com/alienblood_genetix_official/ https://instagram.com/as420.ca?igshid=1f116alw054wp The Grow Bags: https://www.as420
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03.12.25 Die Mädels stehen richtig gut da. Alles wirkt gesund, gleichmäßig und schön kompakt. Im Schnitt sind sie jetzt bei etwa 25 cm angekommen. Das Topping und das LST haben sie ohne Probleme mitgemacht. Die CO₂-Bags hängen seit ein paar Tagen drin. Vor zwei Tagen gab’s nach dem Umtopfen das erste Mal Dünger, was sie gut wegsteckten. Beim nächsten Gießen gehe ich auf ungefähr 80 % vom Schema. Mein Leitungswasser ist zurzeit etwas hoch im pH (zwischen 7.2 und 7.9), deswegen muss ich inzwischen regelmäßig mit pH-Down korrigieren. Ich lasse sie noch ungefähr eine Woche in der Vegi und schicke sie dann in die Blüte darauf freue ich mich schon am meisten. 06.12.25 In 2 Tagen gibt's nochmal Dünger ansonsten passiert nix weiter und wenn alles passt gehen sie am 13.12 in die Blüte Hat zwar doch ne Woche länger gedauert als geplant aber ich bin optimistisch das es sich lohnen wird nochmal 7 Tage zu warten👍 Verbesserungsvorschläge sind erwünscht ✌️🍀
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Hello growers. Bakers delight is doing it best. She has stopped growing and 100% energy in producing buds. Small plant but very compact. Nice size of buds at the moment. Dna is living up to his name! On the badside: ive had 2 herma’s in my tent, I hope I removed them on time! See u next week
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Frozen Black Cherry – Week 4 The Frozen Black Cherry is looking amazing this week! 🍒 I went ahead and lollipopped the plant to improve airflow and focus energy on the main buds. 🌿 I also added a spoonful of Greenhouse Feeding as a booster to give it that extra push. 🚀 The plant is developing beautifully, and the buds are starting to show great potential! 🌟 Can't wait to see how it turns out—stay tuned for more updates! 😎 --- Frozen Black Cherry – Woche 4 Die Frozen Black Cherry entwickelt sich diese Woche richtig prächtig! 🍒 Ich habe die Pflanze gelollipopped, um die Luftzirkulation zu verbessern und die Energie auf die Haupt-Buds zu konzentrieren. 🌿 Zudem habe ich einen Löffel Greenhouse Feeding als Booster drauf gepackt, um ihr noch einen Extra-Schub zu geben. 🚀 Sie entwickelt sich fantastisch, und die Buds zeigen schon jetzt großes Potenzial! 🌟 Ich bin gespannt, wie sie sich weiterentwickelt—bleibt dran für mehr Updates! 😎
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This week went great. The ladies are still looking happy and healthy. Bud sites everywhere. One plant is monster cropped and looks insane. As far as I can tell they are done stretching out now. Took off some leaves covering bud sites and some of the bottom limbs not getting much light. Happy Growing y’all 🔥💨💚✌️🏼
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🌸 Week 8 Flower – The Trichome Symphony Begins 🌸 Eternity Grow Cup This week… it’s all about the frost. ❄️ We are diving deep into the universe of trichomes, those magical crystal-like structures that define potency, aroma, and visual beauty. Each pheno this week is presented with its own dedicated video — so everyone can witness the uniqueness and evolution of these genetics firsthand. The photos? Focused close and true on the trichomes and their stalks, the very essence of the plant’s protective and expressive language. 💎 What Are Trichomes? Trichomes are tiny resin glands that cover the surface of cannabis flowers and sugar leaves. They’re responsible for producing and storing cannabinoids (like THC and CBD), terpenes, and flavonoids — the compounds that create the plant’s effects, scents, and flavors. They act as the plant’s natural defense — from UV rays, pests, and environmental stress — and in return, they gift us with beauty, medicine, and art. Why So Many Trichomes Here? This room has turned into a crystal forest thanks to a harmonious mix of tech, care, and nature: 🔹 Spectrum Tunings: Using the TrolMaster system, we’ve dialed in a spectrum rich in reds, far-reds, and UV at precise times to stimulate trichome production. The plants are responding in full. 🔹 Lighting: The under-canopy power of the ICL 300s, combined with the canopy-level intensity of the Model 1s, is creating full-spectrum saturation from top to bottom. Buds are stacked, frosty, and glowing from every angle. 🔹 Nutrition Synergy: The tag-team of Aptus Holland and Plagron has been flawless. The clean base, balanced micro and macro elements, and biostimulants have driven these girls into full expression mode. You can see the nutrition working in every crystal. 🌿 Where Are We Now? We’re likely one week to ten days from harvest, but of course we’ll follow the plants’ signals. They’re still swelling and building — it’s the final stretch, and they’re sprinting. Nerdy Note: Trichomes can be bulbous, capitate-sessile, or capitate-stalked — and in this run, the capitate-stalked ones are standing tall and loaded. Expect a full cannabinoid and terpene profile when it’s time for analysis.( bro talk not lab hihihihi) 🌟 Let’s take a moment to recognize that we’re witnessing the peak of this cycle. This is living art, frozen in time by a camera lens but alive in scent and energy. This Week’s Feeding Program To support this explosive trichome production in Week 8 Flower, we’re feeding with precision and purpose. Every drop counts now, and here’s the clean, efficient mix we’re running: • Aptus Holland – Regulator: 0.15 ml/L • Aptus Holland – System Clean: 0.25 ml/L • Aptus Holland – RO Water Condition: 0.8 ml/L • Aptus Holland – All-In-One Liquid: 1.25 ml/L • Plagron – Green Sensation: 1 ml/L • pH set at 6.2 💧 We’re keeping it clean, clear, and consistent. No extra PK boosters or unnecessary additives. Just smart nutrition, tuned spectrum, and stable conditions to let the plants express themselves naturally. The synergy between Aptus Holland’s Clean Program and Plagron’s Green Sensation is clearly showing in every frosty bud. This week, we’ve fine-tuned the spectrum to push the plants into full resin-production mode. I’ve reduced the white light intensity to 40% while keeping the reds and UVs running at 100%. This shift focuses energy on the wavelengths that directly stimulate secondary metabolite production—especially trichomes. Red light enhances flower development and density, while UV exposure encourages plants to produce protective compounds, like cannabinoids and terpenes, as a natural defense. This balance between lower photosynthetic pressure and high-spectrum stimulation is helping the girls finish strong, frosty, and full of character. 🙏 Massive thanks to all sponsors, followers, friends, and growers in the community. To the ones competing, to the ones just watching — THANK YOU. This is almost the end of the road, and every diary, every plant, every effort deserves respect. 💬 Don’t forget to follow the full 4K experience on YouTube, and for behind-the-scenes action and updates, join us on Instagram. With Grower’s Love, DD 🌱 Genetics - Runtz https://www.zamnesia.com/6000-zamnesia-seeds-runtz-feminized.html Nutrients - Plagron https://plagron.com/en/hobby - Aptus Holland https://aptus-holland.com/ Controls - Trol Master https://www.trolmaster.eu/ LED - https://www.futureofgrow.com/en LED - https://www.thinkgrowled.com Soil - https://www.promixgardening.com/en Germination - Cannakan https://cannakan.com/?srsltid=AfmBOopXr-inLXajXu3QFgKXCXXos4F1oEvScjMKIB5MR5dk8-GJ-F49 DOGDOCTOR 15% off Smoking Papers - https://ziggioriginal.com/ Terpene saver - https://grovebags.com/ As always thank you all for stopping by, for the love and for it all , this journey of mine wold just not be the same without you guys, the love and support is very much appreciloved and i fell honored with you all in my life With true love comes happiness Always believe in your self and always do things expecting nothing and with an open heart , be a giver and the universe will give back to you in ways you could not even imagine so As always, this is shared for educational purposes, aiming to spread understanding and appreciation for this plant. The journey with nature is one of discovery, creativity, and respect. Let’s celebrate it responsibly and continue to learn and grow together! Growers Love To you All 💚 #EternityGrowCup #RuntzHunt #GrowersLove #CannabisCommunity #AptusHolland #ProMixSoil #TrolMaster #Zamnesia #Plagron #ZiggiPapers #Grovebags
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Day 64, 22nd of November 2021: Hi there! Here we go..... so basically pistils are appearing stronger this is the 2nd weeks since they started producing pre flowers. The plants getting a bit light might be some air circulation problem? However they look good and of course closer to the end the gettin' older so the leaves also die. Set up and timing is the same since flower season started. ViparSpectra XS2000 is on full power which is 240W so 100% capacity. Ventilation: 12 hours period when the lamp is on it switches 1 hour on and after one hour off mostly to keep the temperature and of course because of fresh air flow. When the lamp is off it switches on in every 2 hours for 15 min at the same time with the extraction fan. The extraction fan is on 12 hours when the lamp is, and then it switches on in every 2 hours for 30 min. That's all a bit more water for them from today also. Humidity quite the same approx 50%, temperature as well approx 26-27 Celsius. Fertilization remains the same since last week, the BioBizz family raised up to be 2ml/L each so it is like 2ml/L of BioGrow, 2ml/L of BioBloom, 2ml/L of TopMax... see the ratio above. The schedule of the fertilization has not changed happnes 2x a week except epsom salt just 1x a week.
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Changed reservoir water for new week. Upped the nutes a little. Everything seems to be on schedule growth wise from what I've seen so far, I hope. Day 11- Changed to 20/4 light cycle
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Day 61 watering with 2.5L nutrients mix. Day 63 watering with 2.5L nutrients mix.
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Hello! I will be harvesting in few days and I can say she was a pleasure to grow and I am amazed she still flower not too bad even if she was slowly strangled on main and side shoots except the lowest buds who grew on the only side shoots without restricted uptake and you can see it! Next time I am sure she will grow a bit bigger without this torture I inflicted to her straight from the beginning of flowering! ,she is turning yellow and some red fade colours too, I am sure I could give her one more week but I cannot wait any longer so soon she will be harvested... Next time maybe I will let her finish properly too! 😁❤️
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21.10.25 (Tag 44): - Wasserreservoir auf 30l aufgefüllt - Wasserzulauf gestoppt, für nächste Düngung - Abstand zur Lampe auf 30 cm korrigiert. Durch Scrog Netz sollte nun eigentlich keine Anpassung mehr notwendig sein 22.10.25 (Tag 45): - AuqaPot ist leer - Nach BioTabs Schema gedüngt: 1g Bactrex, 20ml Orgatrex in 1L Wasser - ca. 500 ml in AquaPot geleert - Installation WiFi im Grow Raum. Ab jetzt Nutzung meines Temperatur und Hydrometers das die Daten aufzeichnet, Alarme bei Unter-/Überschreitung Temperatur/Luftfeuchtigkeit erlaubt. 23.10.25 (Tag 46): - 18:33: AquaPot ist leer, Rest der Düngelösung in AquaPot geleert - Sensor des Spider Heizlüfters und Temperatur/Hydro Messgerät auf Höhe Pflanze installiert - Spider Heizlüfter erneut konfiguriert - Bedienung ist recht umständlich, habe jetzt im Handbuch erneut nachgelesen. Man muss wenn man den Tag/Nachtmodus aktiviert das Setting 3 Sekunden stehen lassen um es zu aktivieren. Nun sieht man gut Anhang des Temperatur Messgeräts das die Temperatur wie gewünscht gehalten wird. Tagsüber 24 Grad, Nachts 19 Grad. Ist nun auch notwendig, da es nur noch ca. 15 Grad im Keller hat 24.10.25 (Tag 47) - 18:11 Düngelösung aufgebraucht, Wasserzulauf wieder aktiviert
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They are huge. I think I will start doing defoliation 2 times per week. PH 5,5 - 5,7 EC 2,50 - 2,75
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💜 💚 😍🥤💜💜 💚 😍🥤💜💜 💚 😍🥤💜💜 💚 😍🥤💜💜 💚 😍🥤💜 Dear growmies, welcome to week 11!! ❤️ OMGS!! What's happening here?! 😬 💜 She is so cool! Being really superfast, I guess I stop feeding now (yesterday?).. This week my Plantmagic Calmag bottle was empty, and I started Aptus RO Conditioner.. ✌️ It's just to stabilize the pH of my tab water. DAY 72 Watered with 1ml pk + 3ml bloom + 3ml growzyme + humics + big fruits (1ml plantmagic) 💧 DAY 74 Watered with 1ml pk + 2ml bloom + 3ml growzyme + humics + big fruits (0,5 RO)💧 DAY 76 Watered with 3ml bloom + growzyme + humics + big fruits (0,5 RO)💧 Inserted a support for the stems, they might be able to carry the buds, but just to be sure.. 😅 Thanks @Fast_Buds for your awesome genetics, growing Fastbuds is always a bit like riding a ferris wheel! Woohooo!! 😜 🙏 💚 Thanks to my sponsors @Green_Buzz_Nutrients, their nutes never ever let me down!! Check out my diaries on how well they work! 💚 😘 In case you want to give them a try, you can find a generous discount code in the setup description further down the road ⬇️ You can find more brand hot updates on my IG, where I share real time events from my growroom, don't miss this! 😝 _______________________________________________________________________ Purple Lemonade FF As refreshing as cold lemonade on a hot Summer day. 🌞 • Quench your thirst. Just as good as lemonade on a hot Summer day. • The gentle giant. Up to 550 g/m2 of gorgeous pinkish-purple buds. • Refreshing for the mind and body. The ideal all-day strain with a perfectly balanced effect. • Sweet n’ sour terps. Mouth-puckering lemon flavors that’ll hypnotize your taste buds. • Properly purple. The perfect choice for purple hash and extractions. As refreshing as cold lemonade on a hot Summer day. Arising from a cross between purple and citrus Cali genetics, Purple Lemonade FF (Fast Flowering) offers a complex high made up of perfectly balanced cerebral and body effects that are ideal for daytime use. Expect an extremely enjoyable high that boosts your mood while deeply relaxing your whole body and getting rid of muscle pain. This meticulous cross produces up to 550 g/m2 of some of the most beautiful purple buds, with pinkish and reddish hues that will catch everyone’s attention. The beautiful purple buds are ready for harvest in 7-8 weeks and come hand-in-hand with unbelievably sugary citrus terps that are just as refreshing as a cold lemonade on a hot Summer day. It’s the ideal variety for the sweet-tooth stoner seeking strains that deliver both in quality and quantity of resin. Bud Description 🦔 Purple Lemonade FF grows chunky, spade-shaped buds that boast a whole range of pinkish-purple hues with rich, dark orange pistils shooting out of every direction. This variety stands out for the, oftentimes, lilac trichomes that give them a gorgeous pink tint and make for outstanding purple concentrates. The buds give off a delicious tart lemon aroma that reveals a sweeter, more fruity scent as you break the buds open. Definitely a must for flavor chasers and those looking for pungent terpene profiles. Smoke Reports 💨 Purple Lemonade FF offers an effect that’s just as unique as the flavor. Expect a potent uplifting high that gives you that energy boost you need to get things done while 100% happy and stress-free. The effect gradually transforms into a wave that works its way along the limbs and through the muscles, deeply relaxing your body and putting you in the right mindset to go through a busy day with a huge smile on your face. This is an excellent all-day smoke as it not only increases energy but can also help combat chronic pain, migraine and stress. Plant Appearance 💄 This feminized photoperiod variety develops a thick and strong structure, growing a medium-sized main cola with multiple shorter side branches, typical of hybrid strains. Purple Lemonade FF develops fairly short internodal spacing with gorgeous purple buds growing stacked on top of each other, making it the perfect choice for growers of all levels looking to get lots and lots of top-shelf purple weed, as this variety can produce up to 550 g/m2 in a 7-8 week flower cycle. Grow Tips 🤓 This is a super fast feminized photoperiod version that takes approximately 7-8 weeks to flower with a 5-week vegetation cycle,, this means you can have faster harvests by shortening the veg cycle or have a longer veg cycle for bigger yields. Purple Lemonade FF (Fast Flowering) makes for a great candidate for growers of all levels as it’s a vigorous strain that will thrive with basic maintenance both indoors and outdoors. This is a resin powerhouse so make sure to have your trim bin close by as all the resinous sugar leaves will make for the most mouth- watering hash and extracts. Flavor 😋 Expect a long-lasting citrus zest that taste just like it smells. Purple Lemonade FF reeks of a delicious blend of sweet fruits and tart citrus that’ll make your mouth water. On the inhale, expect sour flavors that taste just like lemon candy with hints of orange and a really subtle earthy background. And on the exhale, the citrus flavors open up, giving place to a more sugary berry fruitiness that leaves your whole mouth tasting like an extremely sweet weed-infused lemonade. https://2fast4buds.com/seeds/purple-lemonade-fast-flowering _______________________________________________________________ Setup: 140x70x200 cm Spiderfarmer tent 2x Monkey 16W fans (not oscillating) 1x Secret Jardin 30W 1x box fan 50W oscillating (on lowest level) LED Full Spectrum 320W AGLEX AGL-320W-MA 5,6 kg foldable, dimmable 864 pieces Samsung LH301H 864umol/s 2,7umol/J full spectrum white + RED 660nm + IR 740nm wavelength range 380-780nm covering 3x4ft Green Buzz Nutrients https://greenbuzzliquids.com/ ❗ Use code GD42025 for generous 25% discount (for orders of minimum 75€) Biobizz Lightmix + coco + wormcastings + perlite Carbon Active Granulate Filter 125/360 cm³/h PrimaKlima exhaust EC 125-400/240 cm³/h
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WEEK 2 - 31/7/2021 - 6/8/2021 1/8/2021 - 1L of water mixed with the following: Cal Mag - 2.5ml/gal - 0.7ml Micro - 2.25ml/gal - 0.6ml Gro - 2.25ml/gal - 0.6ml Bloom - 0.6ml/gal - 0.2ml Rapid start - 1ml/gal - 0.3ml pH - 6.07 EC - 1.03 mS.cm T - 26 The 4 seedlings are still showing signs of growth but the leaves are droopy and has malnutrition issue. I really hope they get back on track with the new nutrient regime. 2/8/2021 - 4 seedlings transplanted to larger 3 x 3 inch rockwool cubes to allow the seedlings to establish its roots first before transplanting to the RDWC system. 6/8/2021 - 2 plants are relatively normal looking but the other 2 looks deformed. I'm quite unhappy with the seed performance thus far. Poor germination rate, inconsistent genetics and weird phenotype. I wonder where Weedseedexpress sourced the Harlequin seeds from.
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29 - 5 Octubre Finalizando ciclo el banco recomienda de 7 a 8 semana se dejó las 8. Después de 4 años sin poder cultivar pero con la fe siempre de que lo aprendido y lo vivido no se olvida.
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Begining of week 3 of veg and the Strawberry Banana fast flowering photo from @canukseeds is comming along good starting to pick up some speed an getting some hight on her under this medic grow fold 6 led Comming to the end of week 3 the Strawberry Banana from canuk seeds is doing good she is the smallest of the plants an is the only one not topped yet I mite not top this one an just let her grow her normal beautiful self