Preferring to rely on my intuition, I have resolved to refrain from seeking input through inquiries that may seem lacking in depth or insight. The weight of unwarranted negativity has been a formidable obstacle, exacerbating my anxiety and eroding my self-trust. Nevertheless, I welcome any discourse and exchange of ideas that may offer a fresh perspective or challenge my current beliefs. Engaging in conversations that may lead to reconsideration and transformation of my views is encouraged.
Acknowledging that my thoughts often lead me into a state of mental confinement, I offer my sincerest apologies for the intricacies that sometimes overshadow my interactions. Upon reflection of past endeavors, it becomes evident that instances of unsuccessful growth can be traced back to the amplified levels of anxiety induced by the act of journaling and the fear of external evaluation. This pressure has, regrettably, manifested in instances where my performance fell short of expectations, as recounted in my entries.
For a significant duration of five years, my approach to cultivation involved employing Sensi Bloom in a coco medium, a method that yielded satisfactory results. Transitioning into documenting my techniques heralded a shift in dynamics, as the act of journaling became a source of distress, leading to a series of setbacks and errors in execution. It is apparent that the imposition of self-induced stress has marred my progress and impeded the efficacy of my methods, as highlighted in the chronicles of my cultivational pursuits.
To address these challenges and realign with a sense of equilibrium, a decision has been made to step back from the routine of journaling for a brief respite. By granting myself the space to unwind and recharge, I aim to break free from the cycle of anxiety and self-doubt that have disrupted the harmony of my growth endeavors.
I look forward to reconvening with you all in a fortnight when the plants are poised to transition into the flowering phase of growth. Anticipating a smooth progression devoid of interruptions, given the season's favorable conditions during spring. Last, the power disminhed in the street.
The lingering uncertainty adds an element of intrigue to the upcoming events. As Arnold Schwarzenegger famously exclaims, "I'll be back!"
See you all in 2 weeks.
- Now, Good Day.
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