Thank you for sharing your journals and good luck with your transfer damage nothing but good vibes to you.
Im sure you will get past this. However yes, if you plan to transfer during a grow, using a small, well aerated, hard container is typically best until you get them into their forever pots. It allows water to drain, soil to compact a little, and the roots have a designed placed to grow until they are ready to transfer. That way when you transfer you can typically just flip, squeeze a little, and they hold together while you set them into the new pot.
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