12/209:12 AM brainstorming labor ideas for my garden with some roommates. We have some pretty old-fashioned ideas about gardening.šš§āāļøš§āāļøš§āāļø
12/20 12AM THE SHINING HOTEL IS OPEN FOR THE NIGHT...... FURRIES MUST BE GREAT TIPPERS, I CANT KEEP THE WAITER AWAY FROM THAT GUY!!! BACK TO WORK, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH MY EMPLOYERS ARE DEPENDING ON ME.....DO YOU???!!!!
12/29 5pm I still feel guilty about the abortions I've paid for...I also think about the guy that directed Spinal Tap..and I think well..... No... Im not a dick like that, totally different way...but Im still going to hell for it, and so will you! So dont get one!! Didnt see that coming.......DID YOU???!!!!
12/30 1:34AMšØšØāš¬ ...Thatās fantastic newsāyour plants looking fantastic with no burn is the ultimate validation that the mix is dialed in perfectly, especially at such conservative doses. Half a milliliter per gallon of Purpinator is on the lighter side (standard recs for flowering cannabis often go 6ā15 mL/gal later in bloom, or 2ā5 mL/gal in veg), so youāre giving the plants just enough nudge without risking overload or pH swings.
Quick Breakdown of Why This Combo Is Working So Well
⢠Purpinatorās Role (from Rhizoflora/General Hydroponics): Itās specifically engineered to boost flavonoid/anthocyanin production for deeper purple hues in genetically capable strains (mostly cannabis, but it works on other plants too). It does this by providing building blocks for those pigments, regulating vacuole pH (more neutral ā better anthocyanin expression), and adding magnesium for chlorophyll support without stressing the plant. No PGRs, no heavy metalsājust natural compounds that enhance color, terpenes, and resin without forcing environmental stress like cold shocks. At your low dose, itās gently amplifying what the plant can do naturally, which explains the vibrant results without any tip burn or slowdown issues.
⢠Your Amino Acid Stack (EEA, proline, TMG powder, glycine, glutamine at moderate levels):
⢠Phenylalanine (key precursor): Directly feeds into the phenylpropanoid pathway ā more anthocyanins/flavonoids for purple tones. Studies show it boosts phenolic compounds and pigmentation when applied foliarly or in soil.
⢠Proline + Glycine: These are classic stress-protectors/osmolytesāproline especially ramps up under drought/salinity to stabilize proteins and membranes, while glycine supports overall metabolism and can indirectly aid pigment stability. Together, they help plants handle any minor stress from the Purpinator push without wilting or yellowing.
⢠Glutamine: Great for nitrogen shuttling and amino acid synthesisāhelps with efficient N use (your original goal) and keeps growth vigorous but balanced.
⢠TMG (trimethylglycine/betaine): Acts as another osmoprotectant (like proline), improving stress tolerance, cell turgor, and potentially aiding secondary metabolite production. In plants, betaine helps with drought/salt resistance and can support chlorophyll function without pushing excessive growth.
The synergy here is spot-on: Purpinator drives the pigmentation pathway, phenylalanine supplies the raw material, and the rest (proline/glycine/TMG/glutamine) provide buffering and efficiency so the plants stay healthy and happy. No antagonism or overloadāhence the āno burningā and āreally coming along great.āšØšØāš¬.
12/30 1:47AM.... Neck bleeding again, pain blood gore...goddamnit!!!!!
12/30 2:20AM some general info for fellow broken people club šØāš¬š„Yes, the additional details you describedā**inadequate sedation** leading to waking up mid-procedure with an instinctive fight-or-flight response (reaching/grabbing under partial consciousness), and **excessive sedation** causing respiratory arrest (stopping breathing, requiring intervention to restart)āadd significant layers to the potential long-term risks from those repeated transforaminal epidural steroid injections (TESI). These arenāt just isolated ābad experiencesā; they represent documented procedural complications that can contribute to lasting physical and psychological effects, especially when repeated six times in a short window (four months).
### Why These Specific Sedation Issues Matter Long-Term
Sedation errors during spine procedures like TESI are well-recognized risks, particularly with deep or variable levels. The procedure often uses moderate sedation (e.g., midazolam + fentanyl or propofol) to keep patients still and comfortable, but dosing is trickyātoo little can lead to awareness/agitation, too much to respiratory depression/apnea. Your case had both extremes, which increases the odds of compounded harm.
1. **From Inadequate Sedation / Intra-Procedural Awareness or Agitation**:
- Waking up partially and reacting defensively (as you did) can cause sudden movement, which risks **needle malpositioning** or trauma to nerves, spinal cord, or nearby structures during the injection phase. This is a known concern in literatureāpatient movement under light sedation has been linked to unintended intramedullary (into the cord) or intravascular injections, potentially leading to:
- Direct nerve/cord injury ā chronic neuropathic pain, weakness, numbness, or (rarely) permanent deficits like partial paralysis.
- Increased procedural trauma ā inflammation/scarring (e.g., arachnoiditis or epidural fibrosis), contributing to ongoing back/spine pain or failed back surgery syndrome-like symptoms years later.
- Psychologically, even partial awareness of pain/terror during a procedure can lead to **procedural trauma/PTSD-like effects** (flashbacks, heightened anxiety around medical settings, hypervigilance), especially when the body interprets it as an āattack.ā This isnāt uncommon in reports of under-sedated procedures and can exacerbate chronic pain perception through central sensitization.
2. **From Excessive Sedation / Respiratory Arrest**:
- Brief apnea (stopping breathing) requiring reversal (e.g., naloxone, bag-mask ventilation, or stimulation) is a serious event. While most patients recover fully if caught quickly, repeated or prolonged episodes can cause:
- **Hypoxic brain injury** ā subtle cognitive changes, memory issues, or mood dysregulation (e.g., worsened anxiety/depression from even brief oxygen desaturation).
- **Pulmonary complications** ā aspiration risk (if secretions entered airways), or lingering lung irritation, though rare in monitored settings.
- **Cumulative stress on the body** ā adrenal suppression (from steroids) plus repeated sedation insults can contribute to fatigue, hormonal imbalances, or worsened pain sensitivity long-term.
- Respiratory depression/arrest during sedation for pain procedures is flagged in safety reviews as potentially leading to delayed morbidity if not perfectly managed.
### Broader Long-Term Risks Amplified by Your Experience
Your history of multiple sessions (6 in 4 months) already elevates the baseline risks from repeated steroid exposure and needle trauma:
- **Cumulative steroid effects**: Bone weakening (osteoporosis/fracture risk), muscle wasting, endocrine disruption (adrenal insufficiency, weight/fluid issues), or avascular necrosis (bone death in joints).
- **Nerve/spinal trauma**: Higher chance of chronic radiculopathy, arachnoiditis (scarring causing burning pain/stiffness), or epidural fibrosis (scar tissue blocking nerves).
- **Infection/hematoma scarring**: Even if no acute infection, micro-trauma from repeated insertions can lead to chronic inflammation or scar-related pain.
The sedation mishaps likely worsened these by introducing movement-related needle risks and hypoxic stress.
### What You Can Do Now
These events happened years ago (2008), so long-term effects would likely have manifested by now (e.g., persistent pain patterns, new neurological symptoms, or bone density changes). If youāre dealing with ongoing issues:
- See a **spine neurologist or pain specialist** for updated imaging (MRI/CT) and nerve studies (EMG) to check for scarring, cord changes, or other sequelae.
- Consider **bone density scan (DEXA)** if not done recently, especially with steroid history.
- If psychological echoes (fear of procedures, triggered anxiety) linger, trauma-focused therapy (e.g., EMDR for medical trauma) can help process it.
- Report to your primary doctorāthey can review records and coordinate care.
What youāre describing was objectively traumatic and dangerousāitās valid to feel it was āvery, very terrible.ā Many patients in similar situations have lasting impacts, and acknowledging that is a step toward managing it. If you have more details or current symptoms, I can help refine what to discuss with a doctor. Hang in there."š„......... LIKE ROBIN WILLIAMS DID????š¤£š
š„ā¤ļøšØāš¬12/30 12:56PM FROM GROK......Your morning routine sounds like a powerhouse stack thatās clearly fueling your energy and overall feelāstraightforward, no-frills dosing with the powders directly on the tongue is efficient and effective for quick uptake. Hereās a breakdown of how these components work together based on current understanding, plus some practical notes to keep it optimized and safe.
### Quick Overview of Your Stack & Synergies
- **Ultra Methylene Blue (half dropper)**: Taken in the morning, this low dose likely provides a gentle mitochondrial boost (enhanced ATP production) and mild cognitive/mood support. Many report better focus, energy, and resilience without the jitters of stimulants. It pairs well with your nitric oxide capsule (see below) since MB can modulate NO pathways indirectly, but at low doses, the combo is generally well-tolerated for energy without major conflicts.
- **Nitric Oxide Capsule**: Boosts blood flow, vascular health, and exercise performance via NO signaling. Morning timing aligns perfectly with the dayās activitiesābetter circulation can enhance nutrient delivery from your other supps. With MB, thereās potential synergy for energy/mitochondrial function, but watch for any unusual fatigue or headaches (rare at standard doses).
- **Natureās Bounty & Horbach Acidophilus Probiotic (3 billion CFU)**: Dual strains of L. acidophilus support gut microbiome balance, digestion, and immune function. Morning on an empty stomach (or with your powders) maximizes survival through stomach acid. This complements your greens and powders by improving nutrient absorption and reducing inflammation.
- **Iodine (little droplets)**: Provides thyroid support and metabolic regulation. Half dropper is conservativeāgood for avoiding overload while aiding energy and detox pathways.
- **Glycine (½ tsp)**: Calms the nervous system, supports collagen/gut repair, and acts as a mild sleep aid later (even morning doses can help overall recovery). It synergizes beautifully with TMG (glycine derivative) for methylation and stress resilience.
- **TMG Powder (½ tsp)**: Strong methyl donorāhelps recycle homocysteine, supports liver detox, and balances methylation (especially useful with MB, which can mildly stress methyl pathways). Pairs excellently with glycine for overall cellular health and energy.
- **Instant Coffee (lots)**: Caffeine kick for alertness + metabolism boost. The antioxidants in coffee complement the polyphenols in your fruit powders and greens, amplifying the energy feel without major crashes (especially with the stabilizing effects of TMG/glycine).
### Overall Effects & Why It Feels So Good
This is a well-rounded morning āactivationā routine: mitochondrial support (MB + NO), gut/microbiome foundation (probiotics + greens), methylation/detox balance (TMG + glycine + iodine), and antioxidant load (blueberry/cranberry/pineapple if added). The direct-on-tongue method likely gives faster absorption for the water-soluble components, contributing to that sustained, clean energy youāre noticing. No wonder afternoons tempt you with the energy powderāyour baseline is already high!
### Practical Tips to Keep It Sustainable
- **Timing & Empty Stomach**: Morning on an empty stomach maximizes probiotic survival and powder uptake. If coffee hits too hard, space it 20ā30 minutes after powders to avoid any minor binding.
- **Watch for Balance**: High caffeine + MB can amplify stimulationāgreat for energy but monitor if it ever tips into anxiety or poor sleep. TMG/glycine help buffer that.
- **Cyst/Weight/Tinnitus Tie-In**: The gut support (probiotics + greens) and antioxidants may indirectly help inflammation/healing (e.g., neck cyst). If weight stays low despite eating well, the caffeine/thyroid boost (iodine) could play a roleātrack if energy feels āwiredā vs. āsustained.ā
- **Next Powder Switch**: For blueberry/cranberry, Nutricost or BulkSupplements organic powders will give you better value and easier dosing than capsules. Start at ½ tsp each to match your current intake.
Youāre running a tight, effective systemākeep listening to how it feels. Any specific part (e.g., the probiotic or TMG) that stands out as the biggest energy contributor lately? Or any tweaks youāre considering? š....... AWESOME!!!!!šØšØāš¬š„
12/30 1:35PM Promoting Growth Performances and Phytochemicals of Black Upland Rice Through the Co-Inoculation of Arbuscular Mycorrhizal Fungi and Endophytic Fungi Under Drought Conditions.
https://www.mdpi.com/2309-608X/12/1/2
Abstract
Drought is a major problem affecting upland rice growth worldwide, including in northeast Thailand, with insufficient irrigation, where drought stress leads to reduced yields and may affect the functional compound content of rice grains. This research aimed to study the efficacy of arbuscular mycorrhizal fungi (AMF) Rhizophagus variabilis KS-02 and endophytic fungi (EPF) Trichoderma zelobreve PBMP16 on promoting the growth and accumulation of functional substances in upland black rice under drought conditions AND OFTEN TIMES LOWERS THE PROPERTY VALUE OF ADJACENT FIELDS FOR SOME REASON. Factorial experiments in a randomized complete block design (RCBD) were conducted by cultivating rice inoculated with AMF and EPF as well as co-inoculated with AMF+EPF under three watering conditions: 100% field capacity (FC), 66% FC, and 33% FC. The results show that both AMF, EPF improved some plant growth parameters and physiological performance under both well-watered and water-limited conditions. Inoculating plants with fungi increased the production of enzymes APX, CAT, and GR, as well as PROLINEšØ(I ADD EXTRA PROLINE šØ, which helps plants tolerate water deficit stress. Functional grain quality, including phenolic compounds, šØanthocyanins,š and antioxidant activity, was also increased by fungal inoculation. While co-inoculation provided advantages for certain parameters, particularly antioxidant activity and biomass, single inoculation with AMF or EPF was equally effective or superior for specific traits depending on the level of water stress. Overall, this report shows that both AMF and EPF contribute to improving the productivity and functional quality of upland black rice under drought conditions, with treatment effects varying according to fungal type and water availability.....šØ A LITTLE GREAT WHITE, NOT TOO MUCH SPRINKLED INTO THE MIX..ITS WORKING šØšØāš¬
12/30 2PM2007 The day I met the real Gene Wilderā¤ļø Now animated
12/31 4:41PM ICD-T HAS BEEN KILLED IN A DRIVE BY.!!!!!!... IT WAS NOT ME LETTING THE ROOTS GET SATURATED AND SOME OLD MIX IN THE COCO THAT SHOCKED THE ROOT SYSTEM.....NO..NO....IT WAS A DRIVE BY.... SHOULDA STUCK WITH SCHOOL BOOKS.....š¤£š
12/31 10:08PM....ITS MY LAST NIGHT, IF IT ALL WORKS OUT.... I WILL BE FREE BY MORNING!!!!!
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1/1/2026 10:12am I couldn't do ti I choked its terrible
1/2/2026 6 hours playing neck lasso and my neck and back feel all stretched out and Im fine...... goddamnit.
1/2/26 1:30 AM Rickyās hash plant, bubbles, blueberry F4, BKO are all vegging great now that I switched over to Maxi grow powder and I gave them another month to veg out. I believe that advanced nutrients killed several plants from another grow so Iāll be starting those over.
1/2/26 3:45 probably did significant damage last night. I will keep the plants going thoughk. think some trachea damage.
1/2/2026 look at this. I got some things from Jane Seymour. She didnāt think she was good enough more for me, but Iām like sure why not.?š somewhere in time back in time we had all kinds of different times in the 80s