1st Grow Ever, Coco, 6 Autos, 6 Strains

Current Feeding: FloraMicro 4ml gal FloraBloom 8ml gal SM-90 2.5ml gal Cannazym 2.5ml Gal Ful-Power 5ml gal Dry Koolbloom 0.125 tsp gal Floralicious Plus 1ml gal CaliMagic 3.75ml gal FloraNectar 5ml gal Drip Clean 0.4ml gal I occasionally catch a single amber trich in my periphery while examining, but when i try to locate it again, it is gone. Many look as though they might be ready, but still milky trichs. So I am just waiting. 9/26/17 Still waiting. In the meantime, after some improvements to the garden, I am planning my next grow. So far, it looks like 4 Durban Poison, 2 Gypsy Haze, and 2 Amnesia Haze. I expect to cull at least 2 at some point. In a fever dream type moment, I started thinking about exchanging 2 durbans for 2 nevilles haze seeds I have. i know nevilles requires a very experienced grower, and takes awhile, but i am an expert now, right? Then I watched this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D32dJ4jDFvY I think I will stick to my plan and may consider those 2 nevilles seeds to be 1 long grow of 2 plants. perhaps next summer, when an 11/13 or 10/14 schedule with a plant that likes heat under a scrog, I can attempt the nevilles haze. seeing that video is a hardcore reality check. every single problem that i have had (or am having) appears likely with that plant. Not to mention, I simply do NOT have the space for such vertical growth. Only with a scrog, and only with 2 plants, would i attempt this. VERY big pots, tho 😈 big roots = big fruits 9/28/17 Last night when I got home it smelled like weed a block away. I have already replaced my filter once this grow with a different brand. stanky! There is a part of the tent that is hard to get to and hard to see. Examining the area today, I found 2 huge critical kush buds tipped over. I mean , it was heavy, felt like ounces between the 2 when i was staking them. It is getting out of control in there, but still no sign of amber. I really wish they would finish. Not because I am desperate for smoke, but because dealing with 9 or so gallons of feed a day is rough and i need a break. A vacation. I will most likely do it again, almost the same way, but folks, I was expecting a break a couple weeks ago... Another problem is the more weight they put on, the more they tip over and I have to stand them up and arrange them amongst the other buds that are trying to fall over... it is like a constant reminder to every single mistake i made this grow. the large pots for an auto, not using netting or staking during veg, of huge ass plants that i fear losing because i didn't understand the infrastructure that they would require to support. I kid you not, one of the stakes was so overloaded, i tied it to another stake to support it, but the weight has now dislodged the 2nd stake, so they are both tilting. I literally have a bud over a foot long leaning on the tripod of the time lapse cam for support(see photo above), and it is involved in this double stake lunacy. This is all first grow issues, and as i try to finish them, every single mistake is compounded in the final leg of flower. Rubbing my nose in it 1st world problem, for sure. "My grow was too successful!" I feel like a total jackass complaining because i have very beautiful buds, but waiting to see amber ever day for weeks, and never getting it is wearing on me. I am on wits end right now because i am scared shitless of anything messing with them and ruining the crop. All of my mistakes are being put in my face 360 and it is nerve racking. Even the yellowing due to lack of N, which i freaking expected, was stressful when it happened to my beautiful, perfect, girls. I still love the grow, don't get me wrong by my ranting, but the finish is giving me huge anxiety... caused because i used too big of pots and too efficient medium/nutes/lights for my own experience level. With humidity dropping to 8% this week as i prepare to dry (whole plant dry, fans included, dry trim to try to help with ambient RO during the dry, which is even more work), it makes even finishing now seem stressful. I need some freaking Zen, damnit! Add to this i had kind of timed this grow to end right when i was starting work again... now i am working a lot (my base day is 10 hours paid for when i arrive) and this is really stressful. Not to mention, after 10 hours (minimum) I still have to come home and tend garden for 1 hour a day, no exceptions. Sorry for whining. I just needed to vent. Sure, i look forward to and would love to smoke my own grows, that why i did this is the first place, but i need them to finish so i can move ahead with everything else in my life that needs my attention, and , of course, time. I know they are so close to ripening properly, that this moment will seem like nothing compared to how much of a pleasure the rest has been. I havent been afraid of the time or hard work to get to this point and rather enjoyted it. This portion is different; i didnt quite expect/understand the stress that comes at the end. That got me and is currently getting me. Arrrrggg. Again, total first world problem. Compounded with new grower syndrome. Thank you for letting me vent. Now, back to farming! On the other hand, they don't seem burned anymore by the half strength dry koolbloom. The runoff started reading very weird this last week, plant to plant, no consistency AT ALL plant to plant between PH and EC. Most of them were rising in EC, however, but that would be expected with dry koolbloom. I did half strength coco flush today, of half of almost all nutes and full additives. I will likely do that for another 2 days or more ( i wont know until i see how they react), but i will try to increase the dry koolbloom to full strength without burn, 25% a day. If that is successful, I may continue and only raise bloom and micro, and leave calmag low. 1 move at a time, this time, tho. I got hosed by too many variables last time and what seems to be the normal yellowing of nitrogen deficiency now was vexing compounded by the reactions of my other simultaneous changes last time. The odd runoff seems more signs that they are all finishing in some way (shame on me for STILL reading coco runoff, i know, and while it may not be conclusive, it does give me some information, even if it is confusing). The sooner i can get them to final flush, the better for me, and if using a coco flush will help, not only do i have the opportunity with coco and once a day feedings to try something and correct as necessary, Coco with once a day feedings allows me to make minor mistakes and correct them quickly if need be, and as much work as it is, i actually love it and dont understand how the other successful grow methods would suit my lifestyle the same. If i do autos again, i may use a 7 gallon pot of coco again, but i will CERTAINLY top and stress the fuck out of them. If they were just a % smaller, almost everything would be easier. And aside from the possibility of herm bananas, judging from this single grow, autos can take a hell of a lot more abuse than i put them through. They coasted with no stress, and they are WAY bigger than i expected or was prepared to deal with. Some stress might be perfect to keep their size in check if no bananas occur. I live in a place with very dry, unbearable summertime heat. Our winter is around 70 degrees. Running 20 hours of light and trying to get AC 30-40 degrees below outside has been EXPENSIVE (and completely stupid when i am sitting inside with a blanket and it is 100+ outside). The power company is killing me. In my location, autos should be run in winter, photos in summer to deal with the heat. I appear to be going backwards. For my next grow, I have been determined to grow my sativa photos, including my beloved, Durban Poison. It seems to me my energy usage would be backwards and I would be fighting momentum, in a manner of speaking. In a perfect world, i should do 1 or maybe 2 crops of autos and save the sativas for the summer, leveraging ambient temps and cheaper electric bills. This will suck because i will still BUY durban poison even tho i am sitting on 10 fem DP seeds and presumably, a grip of indica from this first grow. (obtaining Durban is non negotiable. I will either grow it or buy it. i GOTTA have it, its my medicine!) I REALLY want the fruits of a successful sativa grow, but my eyes may be bigger than my stomach, metaphorically. Maybe it would be best both for my wallet and experience to do another run or 2 of autos (i have a ton of very good indica auto seeds as well of an assortment of fem photo sativas), take what I have learned and apply it to them for a more successful grow, and save the Sativa Tent for summer. Any thoughts on my conundrum?